Knowing that no one was their to support me, except my boyfriend who didn’t even want to be there to begin with and almost went home because he didn’t want to wait for it to start since the wait was “too long”. My mom said she’d be there. My dad too. But they both failed on me. For the longest time, they didn’t even mention going to any of my performances. And now they do, but they keep my hopes up only to crush them down into the ground. On stage, I sang with a big smile as an act to hide the sadness in my eyes. I put myself out there so much. Trying out things that went past my limits of fear. I feel like the only person that feels proud of me, is me. I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU! Just…from the piano :]. You should definately be proud of yourself, auditioning for a solo is probably the scariest thing ever (I wouldn’t know x]). Aw, thanks Jomarie :]. Yeah I was on stage or waiting to go on stage for most of the concert. I think I only got to sit during intermission haha.
lol awuh poor you xD but i wouldve loved to have that much stage time. i love being on stage :D so fun.
Awwuh andy ;D thanks. It means a lot. Oh and good job today! You did good on all of your performances. You performed so much :O lol. Nice job well done.
I almost cried on stage today.
But, I pulled through and thought to myself.
“Fuck, don’t embarrass yourself now. You worked hard for this. “
So I sang. I sang the best I could.
I felt proud of myself.
But I still felt the need of someone out their rooting for me.
Knowing that no one was their to support me, except my boyfriend who didn’t even want to be there to begin with and almost went home because he didn’t want to wait for it to start since the wait was “too long”. My mom said she’d be there. My dad too. But they both failed on me. For the longest time, they didn’t even mention going to any of my performances. And now they do, but they keep my hopes up only to crush them down into the ground. On stage, I sang with a big smile as an act to hide the sadness in my eyes. I put myself out there so much. Trying out things that went past my limits of fear. I feel like the only person that feels proud of me, is me. I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU! Just…from the piano :]. You should definately be proud of yourself, auditioning for a solo is probably the scariest thing ever (I wouldn’t know x]).
Awwuh andy ;D thanks. It means a lot. Oh and good job today! You did good on all of your performances. You performed so much :O lol. Nice job well done.
I almost cried on stage today.
But, I pulled through and thought to myself.
“Fuck, don’t embarrass yourself now. You worked hard for this. “
So I sang. I sang the best I could.
I felt proud of myself.
But I still felt the need of someone out their rooting for me.
Knowing that no one was their to support me, except my boyfriend who didn’t even want to be there to begin with and almost went home because he didn’t want to wait for it to start since the wait was “too long”. My mom said she’d be there. My dad too. But they both failed on me. For the longest time, they didn’t even mention going to any of my performances. And now they do, but they keep my hopes up only to crush them down into the ground. On stage, I sang with a big smile as an act to hide the sadness in my eyes. I put myself out there so much. Trying out things that went past my limits of fear. I feel like the only person that feels proud of me, is me.
I almost cried on stage today.
But, I pulled through and thought to myself.
“Fuck, don’t embarrass yourself now. You worked hard for this. “
So I sang. I sang the best I could.
I felt proud of myself.
But I still felt the need of someone out their rooting for me.
I think it’s so sad that we live in a society where men are looked at sideways for showing emotion or being sensitive in any sense. Women say they want a man who is self aware but when they end up meeting one they call him a pussy, pass him up, and run to a guy who’ll slap ‘em in the face.
well said. this is entirely true.
But often at times, time suddenly creeps up behind us and now we’re 40 something, and we still didn’t write that award winning novel we said we’d write.
Happened to me twice this week.
fml.
